Something that Resides Under the Radar

Something that resides under the radar is the building up of fear when you make efforts to be more awake in life. Fear not for life and limb, necessarily, but just a build-up of fear that probably is similar - but less terrorizing - to living in a police-state. "I'm not doing anything different than everybody else!" Or: slinking around like you're a criminal or guilty or less-than others.

Like others are (and act towards you like they are) more legitimate than you.

Paranoia, maybe. But fear is fear. It builds up. Sometimes you recognize it and stand straight and gaze out with an f-you attitude, throw it off your shoulders, but the thing about it is it creeps over you slowly.

Just identification with everything. People. Worrying about their opinions of you (internal-considering). All that.

The main point: there is an element of courage - spiritual courage - needed to be awake amidst the mechanical friction of the general law.

Spiritual courage, contentment, patience. Patience is needed when dealing with mechanical forces.