New threshold - a further note

It sounds so stupid to use a clerk (or whatever they're called) in a store as an example of such a big thing, but there you go. I'd like to say I'm being attacked by flying dragons, and this time it was different, but . . . I can't say that. Maybe I can. Maybe symbolically there are flying dragons in mundane places, as part of mundane events. Darts of Satan? This mundane person sent a dart of Satan at me, and I fended it off deftly. You think, though, there are people being attacked in serious and dangerous and ferocious ways. So it seems comical. Still. Maybe they are being attacked to that degree because they've yet to escape such environments and I've already escaped them. There but for the grace of God go I. Knock on wood.

I don't want to take anything away from my main point in this post though. I truly feel a new level of control of this higher velocity, explosive energy of consciousness in me I accumulate. I really do. And it is from prayer. It is practically speaking from not operating, or struggling with it, from the position of self-will but having higher will. Real will. God's will. Me, yet me connected to the Absolute II will. God's will. Not just me alone in no man's land not connected to anything because I don't want to say I was still connected to the Absolute III, but maybe you are when you are still acting from self-will even when you are trying to do something of a higher nature. Doing it for the wrong motive maybe. Or no motive. In my prayers I intentionally say "to glorify you (God)". God's will to glorify God. It's still you and your will, but your will is God's will when you are connected to the Absolute II.

The deeper I go with this now the more I want to pray - the more I feel I must pray (for protection) - for inner command and wisdom and God's will and ability to be awake to it and act from it. Because: new level could mean harder tests. More danger even. I feel strong though.