Notes from the Battlefield

I'm keeping up the same effort because I've been in such surreal events recently, and the events have called for real ability to do battle from a higher centers realm: real will.

If I stop now I could get in trouble.

If I stop the prayer now too I could be in trouble.

Part of the surreal events is me getting falsely accused to the police and interrogated by the police (in this case REALLY falsely accused). If I didn't have self-command during these "battles" I'd have really put myself into the hands of the world (turned over to authorities, imprisoned. It's all very biblical.)

I've had to not internally-consider (the tempations have been directly on my vanity and pride).

So I'm like a grail knight who has been in a higher state, then has been in a battle, then continues on. If I just stop with the higher state part the next battle will do me in. I have to stay on my horse.

It's all blatantly an attack in a Christian context too. I'm not in the camp of the devil, so they are persecuting me (a loaded word: "persecuting". I know that.) Yet they are losing. I'm no longer in what I call a "liquid" state. When I first started becoming a real Christian I dissolved and was like in a liquid state. Very easy to mess with me. Now I'm no longer like that but am something substantial with understanding and ability to act from higher will (God's will). I can still overplay my hand (that's a temptation and weakness, like "I won that round, ha ha" and then indulge in resentment over the "injustices" in the aftermath and things like that), so I need to stay shrewd and recognize the dangerous ground I'm on.

I have understanding of the forces at work. It's the battle of not only entering into, but developing within the Kingdom of Light.